I just read my last year's post made on December 31, 2009.
The post reflected my happiness. I had vowed to be happy and cheerful this year.
This year was quite a puzzle. It was an unopened gift for her or I think, she had expected it to be a gift but it turned out a nightmare. She would have liked to erase this year from her life, if it was possible. Right from January 1, she was not happy with her personal and professional life. In the bargain to get happiness, she even lost her strength and strong will.
"Girl, I thought you were strong. You can emerge out of a pool of sadness without affecting even a pebble around you". But I think, if something doesn't happen according to your will for an umpteen number of times, you start loosing confidence. They say, when you make peace with yourself, you make peace with God. Lately, she lost confidence on heaven above, and to an extent this is because she was lost in herself. She lost her identity in toto. A bubbly girl turns into a cry baby or delicate darling.
She is an independent girl who never waits for others. But the weakness is gripping her and she is not able to break the shackles. Was her decision to take life head on, wrong? Will she get what she wants out of her life? Or she will loose herself once again. I seriously wish she is OK, plain OK, so that there are no more upheavals in her life. God bless (if there exists one)
