Earlier in childhood,I use to emulate my mom...waiting for the day when i will look exactly like her. Her dressing sense, minimal make-up, foot-wear and every little act. One thing i got from her is her habit of reading, and i m glad to have this legacy of thoughts.
The other day i read a book. a series of reasons lead me to read the book.
I have always waited to grow up. In school, waiting to go to college and in college, waitin for a job. Our lives are an endless wait, inspite of enjoying the present, we wait for that utopian future.
I got a job finally after waiting for two months at home. I was happy indeed. But on job, I used to wait for Holidays; yes that's the wait. During college vacations, I use to hunt for odd jobs to kill time; and on jobs, I hunt for odd vacations to find some time.
This went on, and sometimes lack for time for myself, added to my frustration. But one day, I was awarded sudden vacations. I was diagonised with pox. Indeed God is great. Mild pox gave me some time to watch all those movies in my archives which were being postponed for quite some time. Then sleep...aah utter pleasure. During school, I hated sleeping in noon, but now, its like amrit.
But after first two days, i started missin work to my surprise. My friends told me to paint, (i did); some told me to read (i completed a book)..all this was done in the first two days. Then one of the good friend told me to read Shrimad Bhagwat Geeta.
I rememebered I brought one from my Granny. (surprisingly, her name is Geeta and she loves reading the holy book, in fact she reads it in parts almost five times a day)
I started reading.
The book is magical i must say. Or in other words, blessed by Lord Krishna, the almighty. I found solace in the alluring words. It gave me hope, that if i perform my best, no one can stop me from satisfaction. they say "teaching" is not important. but "what you learn, what you absorb" is important.
And i learnt about "karm". Its always necessary to occupy yourselves with some or the other thing. it is whether you are learning something i.e. getting knowledge from the surroundings, or else you are executing what you have learnt earlier. And that's the case, we have an objective right from our childhood, to reach the next stage(like the video game) from school to college to job to promotion. Or from single person to best friends to couple to family.
Even when we think, we are not doing anything, say, just sitting in the backyard watching nature, we are learning. We are learning to be selfish like nature, which always gives fresh things to us, when on the other hand, we give her only misery. And that what makes each person different from other.
My mantras from the holy book are:
Work to learn. Learn to work
Not to think about the result
Not to take unnecessary stress
Never doubt anything
Pray God before having food
Not to be jealous
Expectations lead to worries
Anger hurts yourself
Don't be afraid of anything
Maintain balance (sukh me adhik khush na hona, na dukh me adhik dukhi)
I know i m not the write person to comment on such a holy book which has touched a lives of millions. But i tried to make a point of what i understood and observed by making sense of words.
I was able to relate to the book, and person of every age can do it easily, i think. It gave me solace to my warring mind. Now i think i will try to mellow down (at least for some days) and try reading it again and again.
